first off, there have been so many unfortunate events that have occured lately ... i don't want to mention names, out of respect, but there's been accidents where people had to get taken to the hospital, another accident where the prognosis is that of a vegetative state, just this morning i found out one of my parent's friends just died of a heart attack, and a couple of weeks ago a friend of a friend lost her mother to cancer which went undetected until only a few months ago when it was too late to do anything about it
... that's the most bad news i've ever heard at once ... is life usually like this? or is everyone just having a really bad week?
it's weird cuz ... for the last year, i've been burying myself in work and isolating myself ... almost as if i've been trying to avoid human contact for some reason ... and when i finally decide to come out of academia and into the human realm, i'm surprised to be greeted by an overwhelmingly depressing series of bad news
that's why i ask ... is life usually like this, or did i just walk back into life at a bad time?
and on top of all that, i'm still being haunted by my past demons ... well, it's nothing serious compared to everything else that's going on ... but it was a great source of bad energy for me in the past ... and it's come back to haunt me again ... what am i talking about? ... the longing for intimacy
as i've explained it to a friend: i've made a lot of friends recently, only to stop talking to them only a few weeks later ... i've even been starting to feel more distant from the friends that i've known for a long time ... and watching people who were good friends have a (near-)falling out doesn't help neither ... so everything just seems so temporary - as if nothing really lasts
i don't know ... now i'm just rambling about my own petty problems
anyways, if anyone still reads this, i hope you enjoy the video i'm showcasing ... i heard this song a long time ago, but then i forgot about it ... listen to the lyrics, it really got to me when i heard it (a bit too late tho) ... maybe it can get to you too ...
